“Now the Lord had said to Moses in Midian, “Go back to Egypt, for all those who wanted to kill you are dead.” 20 So Moses took his wife and sons, put them on a donkey and started back to Egypt. And he took the staff of God in his hand.” Exodus 4:19-20
Moses had to go back to the place of his failure. He had to trust God to protect him. He had to walk into the environment in which he was almost murdered by the previous Pharaoh, the place from which he fled into the wilderness.
His staff was a simple piece of wood, a tool he used every day in his daily, menial work of caring for animals. God directed him to use the tool that was earthly, ready at hand and completely unremarkable. God turned it into a conduit for revealing his authority, presence and favor.
What tool is ready at your hand? A guitar? A cell phone that you can use to share God-ideas online? The ability to speak or write or lead or serve? What skill do you use on almost a daily basis? Caring for children or adults or needy? What knowledge do you have from years of experience that God wants to embody and empower to be a tool for revealing his loving encouragement?
What is the “Egypt” you have to walk back into? What fears do you face every day as you say a simple ‘yes’ to God’s invitation? It’s not about your abilities, it’s about “I AM THAT I AM” being with you.
On a natural level, Moses had plenty of reasons to lack confidence. He wasn’t an articulate speaker. He had murdered a man when he was still part of the royal household. He was a very reluctant leader.
God called him to do something way beyond his own little world of caring for flocks. He called him to deliver people out of slavery to a cruel dictator. It wasn’t about the wow factor of doing miracles. The miracles were a tool to bring freedom and God’s blessing to an oppressed people.